sigh.

I don't mean to be a downer. I really don't like to be. But when it comes to things like this, it just proves my theory that I'm not good enough. Last night, I swear that I had a dream that I got an email saying that I made it in. That dream alone was able to put me through the day. I thought to myself, "Maybe just this once, I can be wrong about myself." Then, about half an hour ago, I received it, "Thank you for your interest in the Honors Program at Sacramento State. Following review of your application packet, the Honors Admission Committee has placed you on the Waiting List." Siiigh, there goes everything. It sucks when you apply around the same time span as someone you know, but they make it in and you don't. It's like a, "I'm sorry, but this person just qualifies for the spot a lot better than you do." I guess I just have to wait until August 16. Two more weeks of impatiently waiting when I'm probably gonna get the, "Thanks for your interest, but there were many people who applied and we could only accommodate a certain amount of people."

Not good enough. Never good enough.