"It wasn't over for me.
It still isn't over."

I changed my mind. I'm not ready for the new year. There are so many things left unsaid, and I need to have the reassurance that it's all over. I don't feel complete yet.

D.S. and S.Y.!?

They're cuties, for sure.
You're welcome, you two.
:]

Sooo, I should probably be doing something more productive, but I'm not. I'm on my laptop writing this blog for those who actually read it, which is probably no one, but whatevs. Christmas was lovely. Spending time with my mother with an all day House marathon on TV. Beautiful. Yesterday, I went thrifting for the first time in my life. (Thanks Lorisa and Hamed for getting us there!) It was superb. I'll probably go thrifting a lot more from now on. Today is Gwyne's cotillion! Partyparty! Haha, well, yeah. I don't think I'll have time to write about it tonight when I get home since I'll probably be extremely tired and Lorisa's spending the night. See you kids latero.

Damndamndamn, bboys are attractive.

Quickie:

Christmas is in two days! Daaamn..

I'll edit this later.

I'm back. And I'm here to talk about what's been going on lately. Emotions, thoughts, regrets, mistakes, accomplishments. All running through my head. I don't know what to feel, think, do, or say anymore. Rainy days bring me down. Not in the Christmas mood as much as the years before. I wonder what changed.. Maybe it's the thought of a new year just around the corner, and I've done nothing to prepare myself. I've done nothing to change. I tell myself I will, and here I am. Square one. I can't believe I'm about to..

I realize that I've been pretty missing from blogging. It's time to talk about what's been happening lately.

Soo, Tuesday night's concert was pretty good.. Until Advanced's last song. Gross on so many levels. Intermission. Changing wasn't complicated. I love Chamber. We killed in Ukrainian Alleluia. Good job, guys! Then, another quick change to musical clothes. I hate where I was placed, but whatever. Nothing could bring me down after chamber.

Wednesday night was good. I lalalove their warm-ups. It sounds like so much fun! The show started. I finally memorized Mix's solo. Thank gosh. I got a bruise on my head from when they attacked me with candy. Anyway, Bettina and I know the routine and had a mini audition. Hahhh.

Friday night was fun too. Chamber party, heeeeey! That was too much fun. I love my Wall-e and Eve toys. :] Late nights and midnight drives. Love it.

I don't know how else I can say this. I can't say it to your face, you'll find a way to twist my words. I know you never read my blogs ever since that one summer, but maybe you'll find this one day. What happened to us? We used to be inseparable. We hung out constantly. Pretty much to the point where my mom would always wonder how we were able to keep a conversation since we talked 24/7. I backed you up, and you backed me up. I was there for you during family issues, and you were there for mine. Now, we barely talk at all. I always try to somehow give you the benefit of the doubt. I tell myself you're just busy with school and all. I don't even know. It's sad to say that I've only known my best friends now for one or two years when we've been "best friends" ever since the seventh grade. I may sound overdramatic right now, but it's just how I'm feeling. I know, people change. I just wish we didn't.

It's 12:27 AM as I'm writing this blog out. I should be sleeping considering I have 2 choir performances tomorrow. I'm stressed out as hell. Thankfully, I'm done with mostly everything that's due this week. I just have to write my FHS essay. Hopefully, it won't take too much time. It's only getting harder to fake it. I'm done.

Today's just not that good of a day for anyone, huh?
I'm trying to stay optimistic, I promise.

- I finished my TIES.
- I should sleep.
- This isn't good.
- I'm craving some Strawberry Passion Tea.
- John Tucker Must Die makes me sad.

.. =/

Don't you just love the Christmas season? Cause I do.

HAHAHA! Shiiiit girl. Get a life and stop trying to go for him. He thinks you're ugly. Personally, I think you have an ugly personality. Being all fake and shit. Be mature. Oh, and stop mean mugging me, especially when you're around everyone I know. I'll just let everything go, but if you're around some of my friends, and they see you pulling all of this immature crap on me, get ready to be called out.

I hate being hoooome. Take me away!

It's almost break, and I reaaaally can't wait. Before that, I must get through the following:
- Advanced and Chamber concert.
- TIES.

Those are just the mains that I need to especially focus on. Thank God, one more week. I'd love to sleep in again. This break is gonna be like heaven to me. No stress, no work (for the most part). I'm excited.

I'd prefer Christmas to be a happy time of the year rather than the way it's going right now. We should be appreciating rather than hating. I'm not satisfied with myself. I really need 2009 to get here already. I'm so over 2008.

Things have been changing. I don't exactly know how to explain it.. I'm losing interest. Fast. I'm getting really scared. Why do I keep jumping? Nothing works out like that.

I need to get my priorities straight again.

Stuck in my head like an overplayed song. It's an addiction to think about. I don't know what to do, but we'll see what the stars have planned out for me. I trust the stars, even if it's silly.

Game, set, and match.

Ugh, I swear, I have no idea why I'm so awake. I can't sleep for some reason, and it's really bothering me. Everyone fell asleep on me about two hours ago. Oh well, it's karma for always falling asleep on them. Haha. Out of boredom, I decided to check out my phone bill, and it turns out that I've used 7758 texts starting from November 11 till now. It hasn't even been a whole month yet. Am I the only one that finds that number kinda scary?

My gums on the right side of my mouth is sore. I wish it was still numb so I wouldn't feel the pain. I suck with pain, but whatever.

....V-- Go to sleep, Mia. It's hella late.

I'm procrastinating from finalizing my research paper that is due tomorrow for APUSH. I don't know why I took this class. I'll be back once I've finished fixing the corrections my peer-editor made to my paper. Success again.

Today was alright. I get to thank Vitamin Water for giving me a killer stomach ache. Choir stresses me out. I figured out what classes I'm taking senior year. No AP classes. I learned my lesson this year. I'm tired, goodnight.

Note to self:
Drumline practice during rehearsal is very distracting.