KJF;SLDKJFS.

Okay, maybe I am overreacting a bit, but seriously? C'mon dude. I already told you that I was super worried about you cause you were out and weren't replying to me for almost 2 hours. And then you call me to tell me you're on your way back home. Then you don't let me know when you get home? So much shit running though my head right now. It's been more than two hours this time, and you can't even fucking text me that you're home safe? UGH, and I find out on FACEBOOK that you're just CHILLIN' watching the FUCKING VICTORIA SECRET FASHION SHOW!?

FUCK YOU TOO.

me gusta zee boyz' hatz

screwed.

• My throat is killing me. Tea tea tea tea tea.
• 10 page research paper by tonight? Oh yah, let's go.
• Seminar "Hot Seat" questions due Tuesday.
  
• Getting sick, hmph.
• I. Am. Worried.
• Must stay warm this week. Low 50s! -_-
• Finals are in two weeks.
• ^ I have not prepared yet.
• MY HISTORY GRADE DEPENDS ON MY PAPER. WAAAAAH!
  

eating me up on the inside

This time, I'm trying to be strong for myself. Not say a word to anyone and try to get over this alone. It's hurting me when I shouldn't even care. I don't understand why. I know there's an underlying problem here, and I need to figure it out. Otherwise, it's gonna always be here to turn me into a hideous monster when those moments come. Be strong, Mia. You know the truth. Don't let your insecurity ruin what you have been constantly telling yourself.

For once, I wish I could love myself.

Lorisa!

I seriously love it when I hang out with Lorisa. Although we may not constantly talk, I know she's someone I can always depend on. She's always there for me. And she helps me when I'm in a pickle (LOL!). But really though, every time I'm with her, I realize something new. Tonight, I'm gonna try my hardest to no longer talk smack about people. I'm gonna stay positive and bot get easily angered with stupid little things that don't really matter. I'm gonna stop hurting myself by seeing all the negatives. I'm going to trust myself and my emotions to take me to where I want to. I'm finally going to try my best to love myself as I am.

lawl

I think having a younger siblings gives SOME people the excuse to be a camera whore. THE END!

trying to keep it together, but i'm falling apart

thoughts.

• 10 PAGE HISTORY RESEARCH PAPER.
• VIRGINIA WOOLF PRESENTATION.
• 6 PAGE ENGLISH RESEARCH PAPER.
  
• You needa get out of my lifeeee! But you're like a fuckin' leech.
• He's minemineminemine. No one's taking him away from me.
• No Zion I or NCAA for me today ):
• I'm happy you're coming Friday.
• Best friend, I miss you.
• So tempted to add you on live, but no.
• Once November 23 hits, I'll finally be myself again (hopefully).
  

morning thought.

"SINGLE is NOT a status. It's a word that best describes a person who is strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on others."

In my opinion, this quote is totally false. I mean, think about it. A friendship is a type of relationship. When you're weak, you turn to your friends for comfort. And honestly we do depend on our friends. We depend on them to be there for us, to listen to us, and to simply have fun WITH us. Don't say single isn't a status just because you think it's not. Think about it more, and you'll see that you contradict yourself.

thought.

So, I noticed that a lot of people have those statuses where it says something like, "Like this status and I'll tell you..". I'm guilty of always "liking" it too. But the first thing I thought of was, "Wow. A lot of people like to hear nice things about themselves". But then, I thought about it some more. It's not that they're self-centered or anything. In all honesty, it's caused by insecurity. Insecurity of not being what society says you should be. The mere fear of not living up to an expectation. Not everyone can be 100% confident in themselves 100% of the time. We have our moments of weakness. And some more than others. Also, another reason could be the need for reassurance. If someone is constantly surrounded by negatives, it's inevitable that gradually that person will become negative as well. People love positives because it's attracting. It's comforting. It's reassuring. Reassuring that even through all the bullshit, mistakes, and regrets, somewhere along the line, people are able to see the good in you, whether or not you can see it within yourself.

it sucks.

It sucks when the guy you've completely fallen for doesn't think you have. It sucks when the guy's best friend is capable of ruining a relationship. It sucks when you have no power and must give in simply because you don't want to fight anymore. It sucks having things turned on you. It sucks not having trust. It sucks that making mistakes will stay with you forever. It sucks to be judged. It sucks to not be heard out. It sucks to try so hard at something, only to set yourself up for failure. It sucks to know so much, but know so little at the same time. But in complete honesty, it sucks to not be able to overcome all of this and simply have positive mentality when everything else is against you, including yourself.

one day...