interesting.

Sometimes, I don't understand how some of the people I consider "nice" are really close friends with people I consider "bitches". I know that perhaps there are some things they may have in common, but I wonder how "bitches" seem to have a lot of friends? It's a thought that always gets to me at times. However, I can't be one to judge. It's not my friendship, so maybe that's why. Also, I think a lot of people make judgments on me based on whatever. For example, the fact that I'm in a relationship with Mark gets noticeable stares and whispered words. I've come to the conclusion that there will always be people talking. No matter what. You know, I think I need to start over with people. Just everyone in general. I feel like I've put myself into these type of situations. Instead of trying to decipher, or even judge, who someone is, I need to actually get to know these people on a more personal level. But then again, I shouldn't even care about whether or not I'm on "good terms" with certain people. Ugh, this is where everything is under the category of "gray area". To be completely honest, it's so conflicting. I'm on a search to figure myself out.

Sorry if these thoughts are all jumbled up. I can't think straight.