Update

Soo, life's been kinda up and down with me.

1. My home life is.. interesting. I never feel at home anymore. I feel like this is just a place where I sleep and spend my time when I'm not out. Whenever I'm home, there's always a consistent argument, disagreement, misunderstanding, or whatever going on. There's never a time when I feel like I could just relax. Even more so on the weekends, especially this previous weekend. I stayed home on Saturday and Sunday, which made me realize why I'm usually always out. I just can't stand it. At the same time though, I'm only thinking about myself. I need to focus on what my mom needs instead of what I want. There's a goal.

2. School's okay. I'm not satisfied with it at all. I know I could be doing so much better, but there are constant distractions everywhere. It's hard to be home early when I want to be in order to do my homework or anything like that. I'm not happy with what I'm doing with my education. I try to prioritize, but it doesn't help. My grades aren't improving, especially in APUSH. I studied for the previous test, and I still got a 2/9. Yes, I know that's really bad, but what can I do about it? Memorizing anything is my weakness.

3. Siiiigh, choir. I swear, this is probably the toughest part of my days lately. I'm not doing what I am capable of doing. The worst part is, I let it get the best of me. I let my emotions and my thoughts ruin my mind set. Everyone believes in me, but nothing will happen until I believe in myself. This is all I'm saying on this topic.

4. You're the person I turn to when I feel like I can't talk to anyone else. It's not that my friends aren't there for me, it's just that I know you can put a smile on my face. I'll just be blunt and put this out in the open: You make me happy and I'm allowing myself to fall for you.