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Today, I ate my weight in food, and I did not stop until I felt like throwing up, forreal. Keli and I went to Chilis for that 3 for $20 deal again. This time, we ordered something different than last time. I had the pasta and she had the chicken crispers. We were getting full from the appetizer already. I forced myself to eat 3/4 of my pasta, and that's with Keli helping me. I wanted to have a food eating contest with our white chocolate molten cake, but she gave up after three bites and I ended up eating 3/4 of it. The drive to New Park Mall was the worst. I felt like I was dying cause my stomach hurt from all the food. Visited Mix at work..... I'm lazy to blog the rest.

Revisiting

I'm back. Going through old blogging cites and everything. I don't know. I'm just a bit.. sick if anyone can catch my drift. Oh man, watching Enchanted isn't helping either. Stupid love song.

Lately, my mind set has been a little different than usual. I'm sure it's not that obvious, but I don't know. My thoughts are always kept secret as I take notice of my changing environment. I observe and record what goes on without anyone knowing. It's funny, I'm finding out things about people that I never would have realized before. It's okay though. I'm just keeping my mind open.

Sometimes, I wonder what's going on between us. I don't know what to make out of it. I mean, I know we're both shy.. Nevermind. Stupid paranoia..

Update

Soo, life's been kinda up and down with me.

1. My home life is.. interesting. I never feel at home anymore. I feel like this is just a place where I sleep and spend my time when I'm not out. Whenever I'm home, there's always a consistent argument, disagreement, misunderstanding, or whatever going on. There's never a time when I feel like I could just relax. Even more so on the weekends, especially this previous weekend. I stayed home on Saturday and Sunday, which made me realize why I'm usually always out. I just can't stand it. At the same time though, I'm only thinking about myself. I need to focus on what my mom needs instead of what I want. There's a goal.

2. School's okay. I'm not satisfied with it at all. I know I could be doing so much better, but there are constant distractions everywhere. It's hard to be home early when I want to be in order to do my homework or anything like that. I'm not happy with what I'm doing with my education. I try to prioritize, but it doesn't help. My grades aren't improving, especially in APUSH. I studied for the previous test, and I still got a 2/9. Yes, I know that's really bad, but what can I do about it? Memorizing anything is my weakness.

3. Siiiigh, choir. I swear, this is probably the toughest part of my days lately. I'm not doing what I am capable of doing. The worst part is, I let it get the best of me. I let my emotions and my thoughts ruin my mind set. Everyone believes in me, but nothing will happen until I believe in myself. This is all I'm saying on this topic.

4. You're the person I turn to when I feel like I can't talk to anyone else. It's not that my friends aren't there for me, it's just that I know you can put a smile on my face. I'll just be blunt and put this out in the open: You make me happy and I'm allowing myself to fall for you.

I'M ALL OVER THE INTERNET! Haha :]

February blues

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“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.” - Bob Marley.

Crunch Time

For everything.

I don't think I'm handling this well.

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The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

is definitely my new favorite movie. No lie. I'd watch it again, but not when I'm really tired since I'd sleep. Haha. There are so many quotes I wanna remember, so here they are.

"You can be mad as a mad dog at the way things went; you can swear and curse the fates - but when it comes to the end, you have to let go."

"We're meant to lose the people we love. How else are we supposed to know how important they are?"

"Our lives are defined by opportunities - even ones we miss."

"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

"It's funny how sometimes the people we remember the least make the greatest impression on us."

• Second period was the best today.
  
• I'm failing in APUSH with an F.
• Lorisa is my photographer for my Project365!
• I think a lot of people wanna start Project365.
• The cards I received today made me happy.
• 83% compatibility! :]]]
• Btw, we matched today. HAHAHA!
  
• I want my cake batter ice cream from Cold Stone.
  

• I'm not ready for school tomorrow.
• Project365 is off to a good start.
• I got myself a good photo editor thing.
• I just needa learn how to use it.
• I'd like to think I'm the reason why they're happy.
• Good karma, I'm waiting for you.
• Crap, I was supposed to go to Safeway today.
• I don't know if I had any homework besides the project.
  
• It'd be nice if he remembers me.
• He's just too cute.
• I get to see Kelster!
• I need to give Lorisa the secrets I made.
  
• I still have to finish making my cards.
• Maybe I'll go to Safeway soon..
• Mix, we have to be early tomorrow. Zero = story day.
• I'm glad I helped both of them be extremely happy.
• He's just too cute.
  
• Did I mention that I"m not ready for school tomorrow?
  

[21:56] LORISAichooseyou: BITCH FUCK
[21:56] LORISAichooseyou: i hope she cheats on him
[21:56] LORISAichooseyou: and fucks this other guy
[21:56] LORISAichooseyou: and gets aids
[21:56] LORISAichooseyou: and he meets you at a jam
[21:56] LORISAichooseyou: and he falls for you
[21:57] LORISAichooseyou: because mix is a good dancer
[21:57] LORISAichooseyou: and he is your bff
[21:57] LORISAichooseyou: and he likes the way you move
[21:57] LORISAichooseyou: and you get married
[21:57] LORISAichooseyou: so your name can be mia-ashley p-------- t----- tran
[21:58] LORISAichooseyou: and a----- y---, and a-----, and d-----, and d---, and your ex boyfriend
[21:58] LORISAichooseyou: can be like
[21:58] LORISAichooseyou: shit fuck!
[21:58] LORISAichooseyou: i should have went out with mia
[21:58] LORISAichooseyou: she is sooo fly
[21:58] LORISAichooseyou: she is the wife of tony tran
[21:59] LORISAichooseyou: and youll have beautiful filipino viet kids who eat pho with their pancit
[21:59] LORISAichooseyou: in a beatiful home in so-cal
[21:59] LORISAichooseyou: and youll live happily ever after

This girl helps me stay sane. :]