No need.

The purpose of this entry is for me to be able to finally be able to let everything out. I'm not holding back anymore. Only my really good friends know about this blog site, and I trust them with my life. Besides, they have all heard me rant about this way too many times. ;)

First off, I can't believe you hate me. I mean, really? You're gonna bring it back all the way to middle school when someone would start hating on another just because of some stupid reason. Come on now, we were best friends, and now, you're just going to throw it all away because we broke up? That's stupid. I'd love for you to be my friend again. I really do miss you, but obviously, I can't do anything about it right now. When you're mature enough to get through whatever's going on, call me.

Honestly, there's still a little part of me that still can't get over you. No matter what I try to do, and no matter what I tell myself, you have this hold on me. We don't even talk anymore, but you somehow manage to still have a little piece of my heart. (Corny and lamesauce, I know.) Everyone tells me the same thing, "You're too good for him," but every time, I just wish that things could have worked out differently than it did. I don't necessarily mean for us to be together, but at least good friends, you know? I don't know. You were so sweet and considerate. I'm having a hard time letting go, and in all honesty, I'm scared to move on.

When I have this chance to move on, I'm scared to take it. I don't know whether things are going to work out or crash and burn. I know, I shouldn't think about the future, but I can't help it. It's just how my thought process is. I just have a feeling that he likes another girl. I see it, but no one else does. I'm usually right about this gut feeling.. It's not like I know how to approach you anyway. I guess I'll just go with the flow and see where it goes from there. I only want good vibes, please. Oh, and I'll back out at the first sign of awkward feelings.

I've gotten accustomed to things not working out. There's always that doubt in the back of my mind. Whether it comes to school, boys, or my family, I never feel as though I'm making the right choice. Again, I need to focus on the present, not the part or future. I don't want to miss out on life.


.. I think this is good enough for now..