Crap.

There are so many things running through my mind right now. I don't even know where to start. I guess I'll start with school..

The main issue I have at school is my AP U.S. History class. Right now, I have to read chapter 19 by tomorrow and there's about 20+ pages in a chapter. Fun right? Not really, considering I failed the past two tests. I'm definitely getting a cinch in that class. I don't want my mom to see that though. It'll disappoint her. FUCK, I have an article to write tonight.

Choir's doing okay, I guess. I keep getting used as an example.. It's really scaring me now. I don't know what to do. It's just hard to explain. Chamber started today! Happyface.

I'm scared. (I'd rather not elaborate on this topic, but if you wanna know, and you know that I would tell you, just ask.)

FSSJ, we're competing in TWO days. Hoooly craaap. Last practice is tomorrow night, 7PM - 9PM. I'm nervous.. So many people I know are telling me that they're going. I'm shy..

I wish we were like how we were before all of this. You're drifting from me and I don't know what to do to stop it, if that's even possible. I hope you're doing fantastic, and I just want you to know that I pray for you every night. I love you.