4:10 AM

Siiiiiiiiigh. For the first time ever, I got something of mine taken away. Goodbye phone and goodbye car. Hello walking to and from school. Hopefully, I could catch a ride with my cousin, if he's willing to pick me up, that is.

World of Dance is waaay too long to explain. Ask me about it if you really wanna know, but we ended up leaving around 11:30. Denny's at Pleasanton is not the best place to eat. The service was extremely slow. We probably got done eating around 1. Yes, that's how long the service was. Ask me about the parking lot story afterward. I'm too tired to write it all.

We didn't place. Haaaallllaaa sadface.

Ready.

I'M SO PUMPED. Why? World of Dance is finally here! After all those practices and added in rehearsals, it's gonna pay off. So many people are telling me that they're going. It's kinda scaring me, but whatever. I'm starting to halla love practices. Just being with everyone, man.. It's almost like my choir family except it's dancing. Haha :)

Everyone's writing all those deep blogs and I feel kinda left out, but I promise that I'll put one up sooner or later. Probably won't be tomorrow since I'm gonna be busy all day. Wooo.

On the other hand, school was.. Interesting, I guess.
0: Eating all period is fun.
1: I didn't finish number 4. Sadface.
2: I swear, I'm gonna start killin' people in choir soon.
3: Cozine's actually halla funny.
4: Got the whole story thing straightened out. Yay.
6: I didn't get put in a group. Sadface 2x.
7: ... Just halla sadface throughout this whole period.

After school, Mix and I went to Yoswirl, and this girl was halla mean muggin' me for no reason. I would've said something, but I don't like unnecessary drama. New Park Mall afterward. Interesting. Halllaaa sadface 87654132187x tho. Oh well, one step at a time, right?

Dropped Mix off. Speedin' down the freeway and ended up getting stuck in traffic around the Brokaw area. Stupid San Jose. Not really.

I'm getting sleepy. Goodnight.

Crap.

There are so many things running through my mind right now. I don't even know where to start. I guess I'll start with school..

The main issue I have at school is my AP U.S. History class. Right now, I have to read chapter 19 by tomorrow and there's about 20+ pages in a chapter. Fun right? Not really, considering I failed the past two tests. I'm definitely getting a cinch in that class. I don't want my mom to see that though. It'll disappoint her. FUCK, I have an article to write tonight.

Choir's doing okay, I guess. I keep getting used as an example.. It's really scaring me now. I don't know what to do. It's just hard to explain. Chamber started today! Happyface.

I'm scared. (I'd rather not elaborate on this topic, but if you wanna know, and you know that I would tell you, just ask.)

FSSJ, we're competing in TWO days. Hoooly craaap. Last practice is tomorrow night, 7PM - 9PM. I'm nervous.. So many people I know are telling me that they're going. I'm shy..

I wish we were like how we were before all of this. You're drifting from me and I don't know what to do to stop it, if that's even possible. I hope you're doing fantastic, and I just want you to know that I pray for you every night. I love you.

Official.

Oh hot damn. I'm gonna actually miss these kind of rehearsals.

Recap of yesterday: Woke up pretty early for the weekend, I mean, 7:30? Yeaaah, early. Got ready for rehearsal. Drooove to Campbell. Practice from 11-3. Somewhere in the middle, I kept getting calls from everyone. Apparently, there was an SF trip planned. Daaarn, I would've gone, but rehearsal comes first. Decided to pass by SJB festival. Met up with Corey, Lovin, Brenden, and Aj. Kindof. He hates me now. Whatever. Jomar showed up and it was cool talking/chilling with him again. Lovin and Jomar tried to find me a boy for some reason. Yeaah, kinda failed, just a little. Or a lot. Left to go to Santana Row for dinner at Maggiano's. Second time there. I remember everything. I fell asleep on the way home. Mother drove, btw. Played with the doggy for about an hour or two. Sleeeep.

TODAY: Got a phone call from Kim at 5AM. She wanted to visit? Yeah, I told her I'd call her when I actually woke up, which was around 7 again. Decided it'd be fun to wake up everyone. I only succeeded to wake up Keli and Dad. Darn. Kim never showed up. I was too late to go to church with Felme. Whooops? Went to Brenden's house. Just chilled with him and Corey. It took Bren three or four hours to write a two-paged essay. Cute. SJB festival again. MAN, I finally saw Faith, Matt, and Glenci for the first time in ages. I miss them. Turns out Kyle was there? Haha, whoaaa didn't really expect to see him there. Left at 4:45. Camille texts me and says she just got there. Laaame. Rehearsal 5-9. DONE STAGING. World of Dance, here we come.

Did I mention that I finally have my own car? Ooooh baby!

Yuuuck.

I'm pretty tired, but I wanna write even if I wrote in my journal already. Oh well, here's my day. Have fun reading it.

0: Graded essay and read.
1: I swear, I hella hate this class. I'm surrounded by freshmen and sophomores. Ohhh dear.
2: Choir's always fun. I like how we watch Logan Live now. Keli and I did our dance the whole time. I miss dad. New song. Shane-o asked me if I wanted to consider being a first soprano. SIIIIIIKE. I pretty much had a panic attack.
Break: Freshmen need to learn how to walk.
3: APUSH, you're killing me. I was forced to pay attention today cause I sat at a desk. I actually learned something. I have two chapters to learn in less than a week. Isn't that fun?
4: Journalism! Counted with Alyssa. I love writing. The end.
5: Another interview. Hamed and I stayed in for a little to talk to Jamie about Chamber. I'm excited. Met up with everyone in the 200's. Singing Twa Tanbou and Skating from memory. Yeeesss. Keli says I stayed in key for the most part while I was singing.
6: I swear, our government is hella bad. I'm so happy I decided to take this class.
7: Hectic as always. Kind of had a little explosion during class with Alyssa. We have plans made. It'll be fun.

After school, I called Jay to wait for me. He said he would. I had to go to the choir room to pick up my cup that I forgot. Attempted to put my binder in my locker, but I'm so smart that I forgot my combination. Jay ended up ditching me. Tapioca Express. Happy birthday/wedding! Kevin and Jay kicked me out of their cars. Jay ended up bringing me.

Practice choreo with Mix. I learned and got it down in my memory. It was extremely funny. I'm pretty sure we lost a bunch of calories from just laughing at our stupidity. Btw, Mix and I have our own dance. Catch us together at school and you'll probably see it. If not, just ask. We'll do our dance for you.

I can't wait till I get my car.

Teehee.

Simple, Starving to be Safe. I extremely love that song. Serenade me. :)



He's cute.

Busy!

Schedule for September:

13: FSSJ practice 11AM-3PM
14:FSSJ practice 5PM-9PM
15: Soprano "Sectional" 3;30PM-4:30PM
18: Chamber Auditions 3:30PM
20: FSSJ practice 11AM-3PM
21: FSSJ practice 5PM-9PM
27: WORLD OF DANCE COMPETITION 3PM-11PM

I'm so excited, but at the same time, I'm scared that my education is going to suffer. Looking at my schedule, my weekends are extremely busy. Hopefully, I'll be able to prioritize correctly.

REMINDER: Buy all white shoes.

Dictionary.

re·lapse
- verb (used without object)

1.	to fall or slip back into a former state, practice, etc.: to relapse into silence.

Addiction.

Yo-swirl is delicious. Thanks for taking me, Kevin! Saw Kaitlyn there with Paulo. Ate the usual. I need three more stubs to get my free one. Cute boy was working. Oooh la la. Played Jenga and finally won at it. Arrived home to see my mother home before me. Beaaaan! :) Quick Daiso, Ocean, and Target run. Finally didn't get in trouble for getting home "too late." Homework and other stuff.


Figurative uses are hard.

Had To.

Future.

Maybe one day, you'll look back at this point of time and regret the decision you decided to take. And there I'll be, hands cupped with the evidence of unbroken glass, staring at you with my own eyes finally dry. This time it's different. This time, I'll follow in your footsteps and simply.. Walk away.

Paused.

I miss my journal. I'm going to write in it every night.