fixies and longboards

I swear, you're gonna be the death of me. I'm having trouble finding the right ones. I've been secretly wanting you soooo bad. I hope it works out ):

wtf?

Really? I mean, I know I shouldn't be trippin, but I'd at least expect a good morning from you. Whatever. Hope you're having fun with your friends.

relationships.

It's funny how some people can become so "infatuated" or "sprung" over one person. Almost as if your world now revolves around him or her. Honestly, never let that get in the way of your other friendships, especially now since we're all about to go our separate ways for college. I don't understand how you can not reply or simply ignore your friends for your significant other, especially after everything your friends have probably done for you. If your boyfriend, girlfriend, crush, or whatever asks you to drop all your friends for him or her, then you need to rethink your relationship with this person. They should understand that sometimes, you really just need a friend. I understand that maybe your significant other is moving away to somewhere very far, but you have to remember that you are also moving away from all your other friends also. Don't forget everything they've done for you.

stupidity.

I was weak today. I can’t believe I took it to that extent. I lost my focus. I lost my mindset. I did what I knew I shouldn’t have. But is it bad that I enjoyed it? Ohhh, life..

♥

Summer is allowing me to catch up on my sleep. MY EYEBAGS ARE FINALLY DISAPPEARING, GUYS ♥ ♥ ♥

addiction.

This is getting ridiculous. I need to get you out of my system. You've gotten under my skin, into my bloodstream, and stuck in my brain. I can't help but check everything. I need to quit. This is bad for me, I know it. But I can't stop. I feel like I must always keep an eye out for you because I know you're much more diabolical than you allow others to see. But I need to get you out of my brain. You are poisonous.

Who knew a person could do all of this?

SUMMER

My summer so far has been extremely busy. Almost going out all day, every day! Here's a recap of everythaaang:

6/15: MHM day at my house. Then great mall. Spent the night at Mark's.
6/16: Visited NMHS during Mark's stat class. Oyyy vey. How frustrating. Hung out with Willem. Then hung out with everyone at Iguana's.
6/17: Half Moon Bay with the NMHS kids to celebrate their last day of school.
6/18: Senior breakfast and rehearsal. Lunch with Andrew at Taqueria. Stayed up till 12:30 making Mark's graduation poster.
6/19: Graduation! Party with Jay. Mark's grad party. Ana's birthday party. Home at 1:30, howlaaah.
6/20: Cotillion practice in the morning. Hit up New Park and Great Mall with Jan. Kaitlyn came over. Went to Kaitlyn's to borrow an outfit. Mark's house to talk. Intense crying, hyperventilating, losing balance, and continuous shaking. Camille's grad party at 10 - 3AM. Spent the night at Mark's.
6/21: Woke up at 12. Started getting ready for the BBQ. Picked up Jervie, got pizzas, WTF BBQ. Nick's burgers are fucking bomb! No condiments needed! Hung out there for a while.
6/22: Lunch with Wendy. Beehive Cafe is temporarily closed :( Broke her BJ's and pizookie cherry. Picked up Andrew, dropped Wendy off. Cotillion practice from 2-4. Andrew bough a Lotto ticket.

My summer is going full-speed ahead! Should I slow down...? NAAAAAAH!

But I do feel like I should be hanging out with as much of a variety of people as I can this summer. Only because I'll be moving in two months so I'm gonna make Summer 2010 the best one yet!

$$$

I neeeed money. Why you ask? I'd like to buy lenses. For what? My little Mochi. I doubt I'll be getting a job anytime soon since I'll be moving away to Sacramento in two months. I'd like to hope I could. I should go job hunting soon.. Well, I AM going to Great Mall today, probably. We'll see. I need to learn how to use photoshop too. Not to edit my face like everyone does nowadays, but to expand the beauty in my photography, which is very much still at amateur level. Siiigh, one day..

HAHA STUPID GIRLS!

Honestly, I understand that blogs are a place to vent and shit, but why the FUCK would you call people out on it!? HAHA, all these "fuck you's" and hate messages. Yeah, you got screwed over, everyone gets screwed over. Suck it up. I bet you just want pity.


Damn, maybe I am becoming bitter. Now I don't trust anyone.

bwahaha!

Yesterday was fun. Since grad night people left, that means no school for me! Woke up around 10. Met up with Lorisa at Jack in the Box. We both had lovely cheeseburgers! We just talked until I left to go do what I had to do ;). It only took ten minutes MAX. Anyway, tried to go surprise Mark at his school, but that kakahead left early. So Risa and I just met up at his house and looked through his yearbook. So popular, haha. He fell asleep on the couch so I told Risa her fortures! Kekeke, and he didn't even know.. We tried to make Mark dream about honey rivers and bread trees, but it didn't work. Risa picked his work outfit while I taught him how to play Sudoku. I think he's gonna get addicted soon. Went home. Ninang didn't notice my.. Had a really good talk with my mom. We talked about EVERYTHING. From college to Abitch, haha! She actually has some great advice. Thanks momma ♥

Today is consisted of:

• Eye doctor to get new glasses.
• Surprise for Mark and technically, Bean.
• Maybe pass by the AT&T store?
• Possibly try to see Willem today!
• Mochi love :)

I will be taking lots of pictures today. Hopefully they will be successful :)

death wish.

I hope that one day you realize how stupid you're acting. How fake and hypocritical you are. I'd like to know the reasoning behind all of this. Maybe I'll find out, maybe I won't. But I hope one day you'll look back at this and say, "Damn, I should have just left it alone." Because honestly, you're making a huge mistake. Good luck with keeping your fucking friendships throughout college. FUCK YOU BITCHES.

change

THURSDAY, BABY! ♥

channeling.

I know you're only acting like this because you're fighting with her. Please don't take it out on me. I know I made a mistake with orientation, but there's no need for you to get angry at me also. I just want some understanding.

fill up

My heart is filled with hurt and pain, causing me to release insecurities with no trust.

busy week.

Thursday was the Concert, Advanced, and Chamber spring concert 2010. It's very bittersweet now that it's finally over with. I don't know how to explain it. I'm happy, but really sad at the same time. Almost like a piece of me is now missing.. I don't know..

Friday was Show and Jazz Concert 2010. That was the most wonderful experience EVER. Although before call time was terrible, I'm glad I was able to still use choir as my stress reliever. It's a love/hate relationship for sure. Causes me the most grief, but the feeling afterward is so rewarding. I messed up big time at the end of In The Heights, but regardless, it was so much fun.

Saturday was awards night at the Little Theater. My last one ever.. It's crazy, I don't know how to even explain it. Siiiigh.. But anyways, afterward, it was time for me to get ready. Drove to Wendy's where I met up with Lorisa, Wendy, and Jan. Sooo stressful. Once I was done, I drove to Mark's house. Then he drove us to Camille's. We took pictures, then we were on our way to the city. The prom was not crackin' at all. I liked the white chocolate fountain and strawberries :) The free drinks were cool too. I think Mark and I didn't even dance that much, and when we did, it was our "bitch dance". HAHA! Constant stares from Tbitch and Abitch -_- FUCK YOU. Just cause I have my boyfriend and not you, keks. I hate fakes, so thanks for showing me your true colors, bitches! The new song for you is, "REUNITED AND IT FEELS SO GOOOOD!" Here's to you: <^> After prom, the group went to Twin Peaks. Hellaaa foggy, but it was fun chillin' with everyone just laughing. Oddly enough, it was only raining on Mark's car? Wtfeezy? After, we headed to Camille's for food. Mark, Jervie, Denean, and I were the first ones to make it to her house, so we decided to watch some of Shrek, but just as I predicted, as soon as it started, they arrived. We all chilled for a little bit. Then Mark was ready to go, plus it was already 3. We dropped off Denean and Nick. Then slept at his house.

I need pictures.

FUCK THIS SHIIIIIIIIIIT! FUCK YOOU. FUCK HYPOCRITES. GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME. DON'T EVEN TRY. I HATE HYPOCRITES MOST OF ALL.