Beautiful.

I'm trying out this new thing where I just randomly rant about anything and everything in my blogs.

Don't put your life on hold for anyone or anything, but don't let life waste away with anyone or anything either. Life is about things that you do and happen to you everyday. It's not about the things that could have happened but never did, or things that you hope or think would happen in the future. Live life now. Live it to the fullest and stop beating yourself up, trying to be perfect. Allow life to surprise you with it's most wonderful blessings.

I have noticed that whenever things seem to improve, when things are at their best, why can't it stay that way? You see, that's why I'm always looking somewhere else. Never looking at the present, but toward the future.

I got too caught up and now, I'm paying the price.

WANTED

Wanted was a sick ass movie. I recommend you to watch it in the theaters. Talk about the adrenaline rush. Oooh, boy. Yes, it was totally worth $10.

Practice went well. I feel accomplished for the audition piece. The new piece is pretty fast so I need to practice that a bit more. I'll probably do that later today. Oh man, I love it though. No lie.

Oh man. Oh man. Oh man. Oh man. Oh man. Oh man. That's all I have to say for today. I'm about to start getting ready now, and it's at 1:30. HAHAHA! Talk about anxiety.

Stoked!

Looovely! The interview is on Sunday at 1:30PM. I'm quite excited. :) Oooh dear, out of nowhere when they called though. I got a really cheesy smile on my face after they called. Hahaha! Whatta frickin' loser who needs a job.

Tomorrow would be first rehearsal. Kinda scared, kinda excited? I don't know. We'll see how it goes from there. Haha, I think I should bring my mom to drop me off cause I didn't get any of the forms? I don't know.

Today was pretty boring, but whatever, you know? I got to chill with Mix today and see some people. People were surprised with my gauge? Haha, it was funny. Only two people with gauges.. Beautiful.

I'm pretty pissed off/frustrated/stressed/excited right now.

Get it?

Get it, get it girrrrrl.

I believe that it's come to a point of no return. I apologize for what was said and done, but trust me, I really wouldn't do that to anyone, especially you. We'll definitely have one of those crazy sleepovers next week, yeaah?

Why is everyone in summer school this year? Gossssh, you guys have me at home doing nothing! Oh well, come crash my house again. It's funnay. :)



I wanna rock with you.

Hah.

No one reads my shit anyway. So why not just bust it out right now?

I don't understand how people can be so lucky, but take everything for granted. It's like, they have everything I could possibly want, and yet, they toss it aside, thinking, "Oh, I guess ____ is important." No, don't second guess. Never take anyone for granted because one day, you're not going to have everything anymore, and you'll be left with what-if's and those haunting should've - could've - would've type stories.

This year, I'm going to change. No more holding back, no more thinking too much. Just go for it. Waiting around isn't going to get me anywhere. It's time to stare these obstacles in the face and just get through.

Nerf battles!?

Yesterday was fun. Everyone hella crashed my house. This includes Joelle, Pablo, Andrew, Hamed, Mix, Eric, Kevin, Jay, and Marcel. HAHAH! Went to Andrew's and crashed his house. Nerf battles, yo.

I'd like to say that my goal is coming along nicely. I mean, training for it anyway. I still gotta work on my other goal tho. But no worries, I've got the whooole summer to figure out all of this shit.

I STILL NEED A JOB! :(

I'm excited for tomorrow! Angelica and Mia chill day. For sure. Working out and bonding! Fuckin' stoked, man. I get to bond with Angelica! That's whasssup.


Peaaaace.

Start it up.

Haven't been back here since Monday, but I just gotta say that I'm finally out of school! I can't believe I'm a junior now. Insaaaanity.

Crushcrushcrush! :)
Dedication.
Starting tomorrow, I promise.
On the lookout.

Summer is here,
AND IT FEELS SO GOOD.


Peaaaaaaace.

Drop a beat.

God, today was a good day. Thank you yet again.

Tomorrow and Wednesday are the last days of school! Junior status! :)
I'm hella excited for my choir final.
Tomorrow's gonna be fun.
I need to turn in my Jamba Juice application.
You bailed on me again.
I was hella stoked for Friday. Why was it cancelled? Whatever.
I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight.
You're avoiding me!
My friends are trying to make me avoid you!
I don't really care about it anymore.
I'm happy.

Chuuuurch.

Yes, I can take care of myself, Ma. -_-
Today was epic fail with the bill at Denny's. HAHA!
Missed Gabe Bondoc's performance :(
Stomach aches.
Staying up to finish history shit.
Goooodnight.


Peaaaaace.

"Where's my whopper!?"

HAHA! I love chilling with Jay, Kevin, Ella, Dominic, Jericho, and Isaak.
They never fail to make me laugh insanely.

Accomplishments:
Broke my mile record! 7:56, biiiitch.
Applied to Cold Stone (UC&NewPark) and PacSun!
Created a summer goal list again this year!
Officially over it!
Recruited running buddies! :)


Peaaaace.

Shake it up.

For every person I see who's found someone, I think that they must have done something great to deserve him or her. And then I look at myself in the mirror and wonder why I deserve someone. Why I should have the opportunity to fall in love or be "worth-it" in someone else's eyes.

And then I can't think of a reason.
And it sucks.

Whaaaassup?

It's June 1st. I get out of school in ten days. Fuck. Yeah.
Yesterday was filled with laughs all day long.
Bonded with Hamed, Kim, and Lorisa times 948753054.
I'm tired as fuck right now.
Starting today, I'm on a job search!
But the best part about my life right now?
.. I think I'm over you.